We all must endure loss at some point in our lives, but I'm not sure that there is a loss more painful than that of losing a child. I lost a niece to SIDS in 1991' and the memory of the pain of that day is still very real to me just as it was back then. Coming upon her lifeless body in her bassinet was one of the darkest times in my life.
Regrettably, I became angry, and I chose to run away from Jesus. I couldn't understand why He would take a baby, and not allow her to live and grow and experience life here on earth. I didn't understand why He didn't answer my prayers that day for a miracle. And so I chose to be silent. I chose to turn my back and reject Him. And in so doing, I didn't allow Him comfort me or heal my pain. It took me quite a while to find my way back to Him. After another traumatic incident in my life, I began to see my need for Him and I started to pray again. I started to understand why we suffer and sometimes need to endure pain. I also learned that without it, we could never experience comfort and healing.
As Ioss continues to come into my life today, I have learned to Cling to Jesus, and not turn my back on Him. I have decided that no matter what, I will not run away again. I have learned to lean on Him and allow Him to be my steadfast Rock, even when things happen in my life that I don't always understand.
I wrote this song a couple of years ago when my daughter in law lost her twins. One to miscarriage and one to stillbirth. With the grief of our grandbabies and the memories of my niece flooding back, the image of them all together in heaven gave me peace as I thought of how wonderful it must be for them to be in the presence of God and wrapped fully in the arms of Jesus.
My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a child and has endured such pain. My love and prayers are with you as you grieve. And my hope is, that you will cling to Jesus in your time of grief, and allow Him to comfort and heal you.
May you find comfort in this song.